January 2011
76 posts
This last day of 2011 is filled with a lot of madness, tears, yelling. Not what i expected but it is what it is.
Where are you? No where in my reach obviously.
If you don’t want to have anything to do with me let me go. Don’t hold on to me. I can live my life without you. Trust me.
December 2010
147 posts
2010, You were too good for me. 2011, I am so...
This year was filled with so many smiles, laughs, tears, scars. Changing day by day. Spent most of it with the ones close to my heart. Forget the bullshit and start fresh. It’s a brand new year. Six more months seniors. Bittersweet. <3
Ok, I'm 365'n it this year.
vmenor:
And I’ll really come through with it. Picture or Post everyday. I want to remember this year, specially since this year is gonna be full of changes..
Ditto!
School for 8 days and then a 5 day break? I am so... →
The fact that it’s my graduation year and I know you will most likely not going to be there breaks my heart.
I am sorry i don’t know how to comfort you at your worst. I am sorry i don’t know what to say. I am sorry i say the same things over and over again. It’s just that i care but i don’t know how to make you feel better. i don’t know why i bother asking. Sigh. I am a total failure at this.
I was kinda hoping to go to SF before the New Year. I can’t though. Family issues. I wanna fix it up before the New Year is here. I don’t want to start off the year on bad terms.
I am a bit freaked out. I looked into my closet where i hid ___ but when i looked it was not there anymore. Before i left for Christmas i swear it was still there. From Christmas till now that is like 4 day gap. Everything seemed like it was the same thing when i left it. I don’t know where it is now. Ugh. i hate it when people go through my belongings. -______-
Ever since Christmas i have had the freedom i always wanted. The freedom where i can be where ever i want with no one telling me when to go home. The freedom of no one calling me when it’s close to my curfew. I like this freedom but at the same time i don’t. I want to know you care where i am at. I want to know that you are worried. The feeling of you pestering me to go home just makes...
Before 2010 ends i want to have heart to heart conversation with you. To tell you how i really feel. To tell you whats on my mind. I just want you to listen to me. Is that too hard to ask for?
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Where are you when i need you? Where are you when i need a shoulder to cry on? Where are you when i need you to listen? Where are you when i need your advice? Where are you when i need you to hold me tight and tell me i am going to be okay? Where are you when no one else can make me feel better?
The last thing i needed you to do was to give up on me. I didn’t think i would ever witness it. Then again i just did.
I am gonna go watch HP7 right now so i am not going to be deprived anymore. =)
All this nonsense drama going on in the family is really stupid. We have a new baby in the family and you are going to let her grow up with this nonsense? You already put the us through it. Just leave it at that. Don’t let the baby grow up not knowing who her Grandma is or who her Auntie or Uncle is. Get rid of the drama. You have another baby in the family coming in April. You going to let...
I am tired of saying sorry for things i have no control over. I am tired of crying. I am tired of trying to understand the reasons why you are mad. I am tired of all these silent treatments. I am tired of all the yelling. I am just tired of you acting like this.
Another incomplete Christmas.
Both parents no where near me. Both at least a hour to hour and a half away. Sometimes I just don’t know where to spend the holidays anymore. Sigh. I wonder until when will I spend Christmas like this.
I would have thought you would of called me to tell me Merry Christmas but obviously you were to caught up with your other family to do so. Well I still love you but I wish at times like this you would play your role.
So today i found out my cousin gave birth on the 20th. It’s a baby girl. =) Two new baby girls in the family? I am so down. On the down side though she just got out of the hospital yesterday. So they will not be able to be at the family gathering tonight. Well i can wait. I can spoil her next year when they come. =) I am so loving my mood though. =)
For tonight and the rest of the year.
I am gonna forget about all the bullshit that has been happening. Just so i can end my year on a wonderful note.
Merry Christmas!
Hope you guys have a wonderful and safe Christmas!
nhiinguyenn:
shmerv:
fuckyeahdavid-villa:
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Why is it so easy for me to stay up this late when i don’t need to be awake? Why is it so hard for me to pull an all nighter when i do need to be awake?
I am not going to be HP7 deprived anymore
I can watch it over and over without paying. Whooopie for having the DVD. =) I want to watch all of it before i watch this one though. Who wants to watch all of them with me?
Holidays. I don't like them.
Someone is always missing. It’s either my dad or my mom. My mom doesn’t go to family parties because of the past. She holds grudges like no other. I am always with my cousins. It’s always incomplete. I hate it. I don’t think i will ever have a complete family with me during the holidays. =(
You know what leeches are ?
trulyyoursx3:
Those are the people who come to you only when they need you. They use you & leave you when they’re done. You think they’re nice & all but then really it’s not what you think. They just act friendly towards you to get to the point where you would do almost anything for them. They ask you for advice, but when you need help or advice they won’t help you. They would say...
I don’t know why i bother texting you. When i know the conversation will end after a few text messages.
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It started off as a random phone call full of venting. In to a daily aim conversation. Filled with jokes, pick up lines, rants, everything else. Then phone calls full of you singing to me. To chilling with you everyday after school. Going out to eat like fat asses. To falling asleep on the phone. To going out not knowing where we would end up. You + food = me with no money. From sophomore year i...
Taking a trip down memory lane with...
Sometime in 2011 Rossel Curaming and I will go on adventure. Drive up to Twin Peaks on a night full of stars and just relax. Along with Katrina Rose Abalos, Polly Tran , & Jennifer Tran they just don’t know it yet. =)
listentomespeak asked: Can you kick my sister and steal my phone back please? [; I MISS YOU ATEH
listentomespeak asked: Can you kick my sister and steal my phone back please? [; I MISS YOU ATEH
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I given up on myself way before you given up on me.
This is a really late Christmas Wishlist but here...
vnecks
crewnecks
hoodies
skinnies
a new basketball
gift cards
earphones
Surprise me. =)
Fave colors
teal
red
gray
Tshirts - Small jeans - 3 Hoodie /crewnecks - it depends small to a medium
Gift cards to - Forever21 & Aeropostale & Hollister
I am excited for
2010
Christmas
2011
New Years
Spirit Week
Sadies
Birthday
Grad Nite
Prom
Graduation
Whatever else 2011 has in store for me this coming year.
Throughout the year of 2010, I've fallen for the...
I'm over it.
cdeeezy:
Waiting for something that most likely isn’t even going to happen. Getting my hopes up for disappointment and regret. Trying to impress people that never mattered in the first place. Making a fool out of myself just to catch your attention for a few seconds. Convincing myself that you’ve changed when you end up going back to your old ways. Caring too much about people that never gave a...
Night guys.
Going to sleep with a blanket fresh out of the dryer. =)
jessica-ortiz:
You can give anyone and everything a label. It’ll only mean something if they actually live up to it.
Since i was tagged by @santosat
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write 5 random facts, habits, hobbies, or anything about yourself. Then when you finish, you have to tag 5 more people, not including the person who tagged you.
1. I like love the colors teal, red, gray.
2. I sleep on my stomach most of the time.
3. I tell one of mains one thing but i don’t tell another. It feels weird for me if someone knew...
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Action speaks louder than words.
Note to self.
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Action speaks louder than words.
Note to self.
I am not a perfect daughter. I have my flaws. I know I do. Who doesn’t? I am hard headed. You are too. I always been there for you. You are hardly there for me. I ask for something simple and i get yelled at. That’s why i hardly ask for anything. I try my best to be the best i can be for you. I fully given up on myself. I am done. You are done with me. Okay. I will just wait for that...
You can hate on me all you want. You can talk...
Hey guys, It's @vlacayanga on my Best Friend's...
santosat:
I just want to tell you guys that i have the best friend ever. Her name is well Annamarie. She is beautiful, loving, caring, intelligent. She has a passion for dance. I must say she is a very talented dancer.
I slept over her house last night and woke up to her beautiful face. Simbang gabi with her and her mom and John. Breakfast with them too. We went home layed in her bed and...
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-_-
I text CORE and the Mains what they want and they either reply with No, its okay or something cheesy like “You.” and or anything. Now i have to surprise a whole bunch of people.
I don’t remember any of the bad days i had in 2010. I have to actually think hard to try and remember them. All i remember are all the good days. That come to me with a snap of a finger. 2010 you are surely one year to remember.